The blue sky is blinding
My heart hurts for some reason
Dew drops form in eyes without me knowing
In my imagination
It feels like you’re getting closer to me
I’ve been waiting for you, I don’t know since when
I still don’t know love, I don’t know who you are
When will love come to me?
Waiting for U love
Can’t you get a little
Close to me
My love, Babe my sweet heart
All those other people
How can they think of love?
Am I the only one who doesn’t know how?
Very warm and comfortable
And sometimes sweet
With such love you were always with me

I still don’t know love, I don’t know who you are
When will love come to me?
Waiting for U love
Can’t you get a little
Close to me
My love, Babe my sweet heart
Any way that I think about it
When I see you being so happy
And say I love you a thousand times a day
I wondered when and how
Love would come to me
It was already here, Ever since I knew you
There was a place for you
In my heart
I was born to be with you
If you come to me, our time together
From this point on
Will be a dream. My love
Oh, my love, come to me

My second home "DRAGONFLY",watch movie (VANISHED),put tattoo,Waiting Bar,97,PartyWorld,Rab Bar,dinner at Sakae Sushi,receive roses and clothes,rebond hair,Jay’s calender… Me so xin-fu lor… But am i really xin-fu and happy??? As the day for his release gets nearer,the feeling is very strange… Must be due the long period of writing letters and we are separated by a piece of hard,cold wall… Instead of being happy,i’m feeling quite troubled… Things may not work out for us,a separation of 5yrs,our way of communicating is only through letters,promises are meant to be broken… Sometimes i feel that i’ve let him down due to the broken relationship with that bastard who now still owe me money and don’t dare to call my brother… It was a struggle for me 3yrs back when i started with bastard,he wished me all the best cause he knew he wouldn’t be able to give me any xin-fu since the day he went in… Upon hearing what i’ve done for bastard on broke off,he’s sad… I don’t dare to ask anything more from him cause i myself is not a very good gal,as long as he’s willing to accept my everything (i know he will),i’m more than satisfy le…

Me wakeup quite early for my excursion wor… Quite some time didn’t meet someone who keep saying i’m his ‘gon-gon’ chilli padi liao so since he’s free,go out together lor… First he sent me go take salary then we went Vivo for lunch… Had a simple lunch at the ‘jia-xiang’ noodle house,buy sweets at  Candy Empire then walk around before deciding to go Suntec play the candy jackpot machine. I was like so ’sua-ku’ lor,saw the changes at Suntec was like a big issue to me cause i keep whoa here whoa there… Mr J changed $50 dollars worth of $1 coins and we just sat at the candy jackpot machine playing and playing,so fun wor… At the end of the game,meaning using up the $50,we had a bagful of sweets and of course not forgetting my ‘Nightmare’ and ‘Mickey’ lamps and 2 soft toys… KeKe!!! Not bad hor???
Still early,so we went Changi Airport Terminal 3 walk walk… Its my idea lor,LOLX!!! WHOA!!! Very nice sia… Me take photos take until hp low batt… Had ice-cream at "Earl Swensen’s",ordered 1 ‘earthquake’ share lor cause got 8 scoops leh… YUM!!! YUM!!! Eating ice-cream on a rainy day… Soon it was time for us to go off liao. Mr J had appointment with his tuner… Accompany him to a place where i used to go with AG for servicing,haix… Roughly spent around 2hrs there see Mr J’s car on dyno. So tired wor,out the whole day le but was fun and i really enjoyed myself so much… THANKS MR J…!!!

Going to have dinner with XZ and sisters before XZ go for holiday on Wednesday,so envy wor,can go Japan sia… After picking us gals we went straight to Marina South Pier. The dinner was in a ship stationary on the water,a RiverBoat Restuarant… The ambience was very romantic but due to big waves,soon i was feeling quite giddy. My darling Joy came joined us too… The food was nice but there won’t be a second time le,hate to feel giddy causing all appetite lost… It had been quite some time since i been to such place le,everytime fly fly fly… … Arghhhh!!! Sianx…

Hmmmm… Have been rotting at home since Friday night,heehee… Heart was itchy,feel like FLYing but kinda tired wor. Mouth itchy feel like singing also… Also quite some time didn’t meet my good friends cum brothers le,3 of us happily wanted to go pub at Club St but when we were there we got the sudden urge to go FLY. Lotsa my friends were already there when i reached around 12plus,saw my clubbing buddy outside too… My clubbing sisters were there too… Then i saw B with his brothers,i keep asking him to drink and he keep asking me to dance with him,lolx… Although i never fly around much but i drank alot that night sia. Haix… Stupid C promised to go fetch me but he fell asleep… LOLX!!! Before leaving,saw M and had to drink a glass with him. As usual,took cab with my clubbing buddy,ZY… The journey seemed very long,was so tired that my mind was blank,didn’t have the energy to think too much… ZY was so afraid that i’ll cry but i kept holding back my tears,cause 2008 le,cannot every time cry,i told myself i must be strong,even if cry also must be because of happy things  and not for those BASTARDS outside… I CAN DO IT DE!!!

01 Jan (Tue) & 02 Jan (Wed)… … Good Good Gal, HOME SWEET HOME!!!
ps: while i was online on wednesday,someone surprised me…he’s out le…and while i was chatting with a good friend of mine,i found out that the person whom i’ve been waiting for was attached le.since i don’t have the rights to confront him,deep down in my heart though i’m very sad but i still wish him all the best…hopefully he’d really get over his ex who had hurt him to start a new relationship without hurting this new gf of his like how he had hurt me…
03 Jan (Thur)… … I know that i can’t be dwelling in the past cause its 2008 le,therefore i know i gotta untie the knot in my heart no matter what… Since there are guys out there who are nice to me,no harm going out with them rather than cooping myself at home. But whether they can melt iceberg or not,gotta depends le… Will be going for movie with C tonight… Think this is my first step out liao,out of the circle which i’ve been walking in for the past few months. C came fetched me at 10plus,had coffee at an ORGANIC cafe,previous StarBucks which is at Orchard Building. Will be watching ALIEN VS PREDATOR 2 at 12mn… The whole show was about 2 black creatures fighting lor… After movie i was so tired cause quite sometime didn’t sleep so late during weekdays le. *yawnx*

31 Dec (Mon)… … YEAH!!! Party time tonight again… ZY came hougang to meet me before going FLY together. As we need to reach early so never had dinner wor. So hungry lor,ordered the party platters at FLY,that’s our dinner le. Since its a PH eve,will be crowded as time passed,therefore me started FLYing around first… Those usual familiar faces,drink with them… When my ‘da-jie’ reached with 2 other girlfriends,the 4 of us started to FLY together and also photo taking time… When it was about time to countdown,we were stuck at a table. Guys we don’t know offered each of us a drink,hehe… Jam everywhere,even toilets also long queue lor,sianx… But we did something very ‘ma-lu’,can’t be mentioned here,so paiseh lor,LOLX!!! Did have a great time with all my friends,love them so much… Then i saw J… HAHA!!! the first time i met him i asked if he wana sent me back,the second time i saw him i asked the same question again… We went Joo Seng for supper before going back. I’m so tired and hungry sia… It was sotong’s birthday also,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! When i reached home,so many at people at FLY was still looking for me but i was too tired to pick up any calls le,sweet dreams better… *yawnx*

26 Dec (Wed) - 28 Dec (Fri)… … Home Sweet Home!!! Good Gal…
29 Dec (Sat)… … Work half day,go home wana rest but someone wanted me to company him go service his car wor… So pathetic… Sob! Sob! J came fetched me at 2pm,go Sin Ming with him to service his car. While at kopi shop,so BIG rain wor… As he’ll be polishing his car with friend,of course i’m not that stupid to follow lah… Go home have my beauty sleep. Had wanted to watch movie with C but since he didn’t confirm with me the tickets therefore i sleep all the way… KeKe… When i woke up,i had so many missed calls my him wor,lolx…
30 Dec (Sun)… … Another day for me to rot at home again… …