Since that day after the movie i never hear from S anymore,even until today… I keep telling myself i won’t be tempted to FLY on weekends and i really did it… But my heart was there. Kept telling J to help me look after S,i do care though i never show… Lotsa phone calls and sms on both Friday and Saturday,really got the urge to go FLY but doesn’t wish to see him,especially when he’s drunk… My heart ache,don’t know why but hopefully the pain will slowly ease away,as long as he don’t walk further into my life…

20 April 2008 (Sun)… … Hmmmmm… Didn’t have the mood to go anywhere,even J asked me to go Raf’s house i also don’t feel like going,just stayed at home to blog whatever is left in my memory. While chatting online,Col asked me for movie… Since i’ve already rejected him once so inorder not to disappoint him again i meet him 9pm at AMK Hub to catch the 9.20pm show,THE HOTTIE and THE NOTTIE. Quite a funny show,Paris Hilton damn sexy sia… Accompanied him for supper at S11 and i happened to recall some memories,haix… … Col sent me home…

22 April 2008 (Tue)… … Woke up as early as 5.45am and when i was bathing halfway,it suddenly rain heavily. W picked me up for breakfast,had mee-siam at Kovan market and also ta-bao Mac’s double chocolate frappe and a piece of chocolate cake… Such a sweet breakfast wor… Then sent me to work and due to the heavy rain earlier on,everywhere also traffic jam and i reached office at 10am,haha!!! Had a wonderful day at work cause chocolate can make one happy,really brighten up my day… Just as i was in my colleague’s car after work,received a sms from S telling me he bringing jacket,so i asked in query why did he tell me he bring jacket and he replied saying just incase i need it. I smiled sweetly to myself… HeeHee!!! Went Bishan visit grandpa and meet J to go J8 for dinner while waiting for his wife and S.We’ll be watching the 9.50pm show,THE FORBIDDEN KINGDOM… Still got time so we went to the arcade to play the Super Mario game,4 of us play like mad people and J always come in last in the race. Hey Jason,got license doesn’t mean know how to play game lor,haha!!! Our last game is my favourite,Maximum Tune 3… I came in FIRST lor… After the movie,as usual we’ll sit and chat awhile at kpt then S will sent me home…

10 April 2008 (Thur)… … Had wanted to sleep early for the night so that tomorrow will have enough energy to FLY the whole night but immediately after i sms S ‘good night’ i received his call asking me go sing song. Mouth itchy cause quite some time didn’t sing le,almost every weekend is FLY FLY FLY… After J picked S they came over fetched me and we went AMK K-Box as J’s wife was there with her friends. Sang till around 2am,had supper then went home… Was quite surprised that S can sing quite well wor…
11 April 2008 (Fri)… … Took time off from work,left office at 3pm to go home rest awhile before FLYing for the night. J came picked me up first together with his brother and bro’s friend,had simple dinner at 401 before collecting the birthday cake for his wife at Clarke Quay. The cake was wrapped up nicely in a box so i told J i wanted ‘this’ cake for my birthday… When the cake was brought out at FLY,i was very shocked and immediately told J i don’t want the cake as my birthday present anymore. It was in the shape of a PENIS!!! Those guys were playing and making fun of the cake… I was flying and flying,drinking and drinking,from level 1 till level 2. And of course,drunk lor… Went back to the birthday table when i was very high,the guys grabbed me and started to put the ‘PENIS’ infront of my mouth making fun of this drunk and blur queen. Both husband and wife were already on the sofa sleeping,the rest of us were either drunk or very high… As usual,HE will send me back… I always believe that when a person is drunk,whatever he say is from the bottom of his heart. HE said he like me,i chose not to believe,to escape from reality ba… Slept till the next afternoon,HE brought me for lunch and sent me home… As i’d drank alot,still having hangover so decided not to FLY on this Saturday night though those guys as usual will be there…
13 April 2008 (Sun)… … Grandpa’s birthday,went for celebration at Bishan and so coincidentally that J’s house is just across grandpa’s. J and wife picked me up,wanting to go Bugis for steamboat with S but this fellow called while we were on our way liao,saying he had a bad stomachache and couldn’t joined us so the 3 of us enjoyed the steamboat on our own. Surprisingly Mr D replied my message saying he’ll meet me after he’s done with his work. After our steamboat we went back to Bishan to meet Mr D,J left after awhile so i went to Mr D’s office with him as he still need to do some work… He sent me home after that… In between when i’m kinda bored,i sms S asking if he really don’t like me at all but he replied with a ‘LIKE’ but… … …The rest i shan’t blog ,but at least he admitted,and this solve the mystery in me… Anyway i do have liking on him but it seems like there’s still some barriers between us. Will like become love if we carry on like this???
15 April 2008 (Tue)… … Wasn’t feeling very well since Monday so took mc and also took this opportunity to visit my sister and my god-son. W accompanied me to Marsiling and we stayed there for 3hrs due to the rain. Went Bishan see doctor as we’ll be meeting J and his wife for movie at J8… So weird that today’s movie was without S cause the joker still feeling unwell. Watched ‘Street Kings’ by Keanu Reeves,not bad lah…
16 April 2008 (Wed)… … Was quite upset that my leave for tomorrow was cancelled,wondering how is my beloved bro going to contact me when he’s released if i never go fetched him??? Hmmmmmm… … Haix!!! J came picked me then his wife followed by W and we went to a pub at Jalan Klapa as we’ll be meeting 500 there cause the pub was opened by his boss. Initially HE didn’t want to go but suddenly received a sms from him saying he’ll join us… Aiyo,they started to make fun of me and him again. Mood was quite down when i still couldn’t think of a solution for tomorrow,tears almost rolled down when i was on the phone with DaDa but lucky this joker came out smoke at the right time so i hold back my tears… Mr D replied to my sms earlier on,had wanted to go pub find us but since we leaving soon so meet him at Jalan Besar for dim-sum instead. I was shocked to learn from S that my video was posted on you-tube with the ‘PENIS’ in my mouth on K’s birthday celebration at FLY last Friday… Out of anger,i shouted at him and i knew he was pissed off with me… …
17 April 2008 (Thur)… … My day brighten up when Kelvin could make it to fetch my bro on my behalf… And i even took the initiative to apologize to S for shouting at him yesterday,infact i was quite worried that he’ll ignore me but the stone in my heart was put down when i received his call saying he no angry le,scare die me lor… As i was damn tired,fell asleep as early as 9plus 10pm… OMG!!! I think i’m beginning to fall for him liao,what should i do???
18 April 2008 (Fri)… … It’s time to FLY again,ZY picked me up at 9.30pm as i’ll be meeting K outside FLY at 10pm. It’s kinda early lor… We gals joined another group’s table since J and the rest haven’t reached. We were fooled by A over 3 stupid video clips,funny and so unbelievable lor. Since we lost the bet so we drank 3 glasses continuously willingly… Time’s up for me to start FLYing around again… Drink here drink there,kana ‘GraveYard’ is a nightmare,OMG!!! Started to feel drunk,really very drunk until my head’s spinning. Tried to sleep at sofa but the moment i lied down i feel like vomiting. And i did vomited twice in the toilet… When i was singing with K and S at Mono i received AG’s call saying he’s at FLY. Though happy to see him but at the same time sad to see him getting thinner,haix… Together with J,his wife,M and S we went for supper but i was too tired to eat after vomiting for the 3rd time. As soon as i was in the car again,i fell asleep… Serangoon and Hougang very near only but i was dropped at Serangoon,meaning i had to go back his house again. Not many people knew about me going back his house whenever after FLYing but how many really believe we are not what they think? We slept on the same bed really is just to sleep lor…
19 April 2008 (Sat)… … Mummy go holiday liao,meaning i have to do everything at home myself,haix… Quickly prepared myself when i reached home from his place then meet my bro at Hougang Green. JL fetched me for dinner then sent me back to Hougang again to meet my bro and i bring my bro to FLY!!! So long didn’t club with my bro liao,so happy wor… 6 shots of vodka for me at one shot,want my life lor. But the one getting drunk not me,is my bro instead… I sent bro back but heart still at FLY,haix…!!! Someone replied on HIS behalf when i sms him,the feeling at that moment was so strange that no words could describe. Like what he say,we’re good friends so why should i care so much for him… Why do i have to worry for him when he don’t worry about me at all… Why??? I hate this type of feeling,making me so confused… Stupid S,how i wish i can stop myself from liking u… …
     

It’s a Monday (07.04.08) and after i finished work went home to prepare myself for movie with Jason,his wife and Shanas… While waiting to go out i received a call from my sister’s hubby,things went wrong for them again and definitely not  my sister’s fault cause GUYS ARE BASTARDS!!! Didn’t really have the mood for movie at first but my mood slowly brighten up after meeting the guys. We had movie at AMK HUB,its a 10.20pm show,FATAL MOVE… Half way through the movie i was cold,S gave me his jacket and i left him to feel cold,haha… After movie,went S11 for a drink and chatted awhile before heading home. As i had already slept alot the day before i was tossing here and there and at the same thinking about my sister’s problem with her hubby. I know i can’t interfere much in their problems but i do care for this sis of mine and she did helped me alot before when i had problems with an ex of mine. All guys are the same,whether married or with girlfriends they’ll still tend to flirt around outside and when they’re discovered they’ll think of ways and means to please their wifes/girlfriends,even swearing here and there but after some time they’ll still repeat the same mistakes again,and even worst… … Even the most trustworthy guy can also can be the most un-trustworthy person on earth. Guys make mistakes will never be sentenced but when gals make a small mistake they’ll immediately be sentenced,so unfair. Guys can flirt but gals cannot and they’ll be classified as ‘cheap’… But those BITCHES and SLUTS who come in between others relationship why aren’t they classified as ‘cheap’??? I feel that they should be condamn forever,make them disappear from this world and there shall be peace,there’ll be ETERNAL LOVE…!!!

this message is for someone who until now still don’t accept my request,and don’t even dare to cancel my request too but still viewing me wor… you know who you are,you should have a deep impression of me through my photos though until now you still haven’t seen me in person,but i just wana tell you this,don’t be a third party,especially when that guy already had a wife and child,the second one is on the way… what happened at Tiong Bahru that night i was already informed,i should be there but i gave it a missed due to my movie. i was so surprised that even a pregnant woman you also want beat her back,you’re taking my sister for granted lor but hopefully after that slap your heart will be shattered. move on with your life,find another guy ba,he’s not the only guy in this world and frankly speaking,you’re not ugly too so i think you’ll be able to find a bf soon… and this is not the end,i do hope to ’see’ you at FLY wor cause i wana drink with you leh… …

Thursday night watched movie with J,his wife,Shanas and F at CineLeisure… 9.50pm "The 3 Kingdoms"… Though i don’t really understand the story but i watched for the sake of watching Andy Lau’s superb acting in the show… Was shagged but the next morning still forced myself to get up for work,after work went for my manicure session then rushed back home to have a short rest before preparing myself for FLYing time. S waited there for me,so sad that J was confined for this weekend… 11pm and it was full house already??? What’s the occasion man??? DRINK DRANK DRUNK…!!! Lucky got S looking after me but he was busy FLYing too,and of course he was high also… STML lor after drinking so much… And it was S responsibility to send me back but i was back at his house. The moment i lied on bed,i fell asleep till the next day afternoon 3plus… I know that none of them will belief that we’re innocent BUT there is someone who does belief,and its Jason… Thanks for your understanding,you’re my best clubbing kaki as well as someone who’s always there to give me advise even though we don’t really know each other very long,you’re the BEST BUDDY…!!! Tired is the only word which i can used to describe myself… Nua until 9plus then prepared myself for my FLYing session again… Since J will be going with his wife,i shan’t missed today’s FLYing session… Though not really in the mood to drink but still ‘eng-siew’ afew glasses… HaHa,J’s sleeping time started again,and i left with the rest since it’s on the way… Was quite pissed off with a sms which i received asking me if i wana go over his place. Hey,i can go over to my BROTHER house but doesn’t mean i’ll go to any guy’s house,what do you take me for??? Seems like people who truly,really understand me in this world is really limited… Anyway,it’s up to you all out there to say,as long as my conscience is clear there’s nothing i can do to stop others from anyhow say things…

Haix… Quite some time didn’t update my ‘interesting’ life liao… Shall blog what is left in my memory ba… Starting from Friday,but should be 2weeks back liao… As usual,FLYing time again… Was spotted by someone in FRIENDSTER,Gary… He was there with colleagues since 7plus??? By 12plus i’m already almost to my limit liao… So early again… Mr D was still busy at work,some strange feelings prompt me to call Mr Pig and surprisingly he answered my call and went St James fetched me even though he didn’t like gals to drink. And i knew this will be the first and last time that he’s going to pick me up from there… And i knew the reason for me drinking so much… From the moment i was on my way to FLY,i was sms-ing with Mr D all the while,throughout the whole night we were sms-ing each other which resulted in me not controlling the amount i drink,by the time J reached i was already super high liao…
Saturday night,FLYing time again… Supposed to go for movie first before FLYing but since J called up to go BarDot first so meet him and friends there. Had abit too much the night before so don’t really dared to drink much… Mr D was there too… Though we didn’t talked to each other but we sms,the whole night… Since he didn’t want to give me a definite answer,i started to attitude with him. Shanas sent me back since J got so many places to go… Accompanied S for breakfast at house downstair’s kopi shop and i suddenly received Mr D’s sms saying he had met with an accident. Worried but there’s nothing i can do,besides calling J to give him a call,who else can i turn to??? Haix…

*something to add in… Had dim-sum for breakfast with Mr D,his favourite "har-gao" lor… Was supposed to have movie in the evening but since he’s still busy with work and i was also ‘re-called’ back to Blue Heaven so had to cancel our movie date… Was glad that Mr D made the effort to fetch me back despite he’s still busy,at least he did tried his best. Learning that he’s going to fall sick,made him come over my place to pass him the barley water i specially made for him. Chatted from 12plus mid-night to 4am at void deck on early Tuesday morning despite i still need to work the next day… Had a wonderful japanese dinner at VivoCity with W…  After which we went over to my favourite pub,Numbers at Boat Quay for chilling out…*