I duno where the hell is everybody from that group, i lost BL’s number so i think the only one who may have his number is SH, so that’s how we started… I got his number from AG, motive was to get BL’s number only but SH started by asking, would i have find him if there’s nothing up, so i say ya lor… The whole night at work (02.09.08, Tue) we were sms-ing, XZ thought was with CF but i told him not, just kept smiling to myself… HeeHee!!! And that’s how we started, since we don’t know each other well so he initiated by saying we try out, so i suggested a 1mth probation, but he said too long liao so i cut down to 2wks instead. Inorder not to have future misunderstandings, i made myself clear to him that no matter what i won’t give up that group of buddies and at the same time i don’t have so much time for him too. As i wana made it memorable, i requested the day to be pulled 1 day earlier, 1st Sep cause that was the day when we sang that song the 2nd tme and feelings were developed… I’ve found myself a boyfriend, but is he really the one for me??? I seems to be walking in circle, not getting out from it at all, once again, play car de wor, and the 2nd person from C.V… But given his age, he should be more mature than the previous one. I shared this good news with my da-lin of course, people who can understand from my msn personal msg will know that i’m in love, everybody wants me to be ‘xing-fu’ after what i’ve gone through, i also wish to be ‘xing-fu’ but such things are not for me to say de mah… He holds the triumph card, he got the say.

04 Sep (Thursday), SH promised to fetch me from work. Went work happily, meet A go pub together since he’s XZ’s friend but the shocking thing was he suddenly expressed his feelings towards me, OMG!!! The whole night i really don’t know how to face him, i don’t wana hurt anybody, i rather i’m the one being hurt… Since the 2wks probation is still going on, of course, i think my status is still single ba, but unavailable lor… Haix, he’s still busy at work therefore XZ had to send me back. XZ already knew about me and SH and i also know very fast, the whole of C.V people also will know cause there’s no secret in that group. Frankly speaking, i don’t even know what’s the probation about, kinda stupid lor… Anyway, after a painful experience, i told myself and people who care that i won’t let history repeat itself again. I may not know how to be a good gf but i know as long as u name it, i’ll try to do it, at least i tried my best…

05 Sep (Friday), had wanted to go home have a short nap before meeting him for movie, but after doing my nails and colouring my hair, when i reached home was already 8plus, after having my dinner no time to sleep liao lor. Therefore decided to go FLY since it was Bro Botak’s birthday and all will be there. Linda came over my place, took a cab to Bishan picked up Xiaotu and Jason, by the time we reached there, just nice lah, just finish cutting cake. Bring Linda FLY around, introducing her my friends and since she’s not a good drinker so i had to drink on her behalf as well as my own share. Within 2hrs, i was quite high liao. He fetched me around 2am, since we’ll be watching movie at CineLeisure, dropped Linda there to take a cab back. Wall E @ 3.10am, so cute and funny… It was raining heavily when the movie ended, wanted to find a place for makan but everywhere also no shelter, no choice but to go back Jurong liao. Aiyo, not even a drop of rain at Jurong wor, after makan he bring me to his office, the sun was already coming out liao. So tired that i just fell asleep while lying on his lap. When he’s done with his thing, it was already 9am, before sending me back we went Bt Batok fetched his friend…

06 Sep (Saturday), i slept afew hours, but he never sleep at all, was outside with his friends, ke-lian wor, he must be very tired but what to do leh… Since i’ll be working so can’t company him for dinner, but he had promised to fetch me after work then back to Jurong. He’s tired, the moment he never replied my msg i knew he had fallen asleep le, thinking he’ll wake up by 3am but he never. So i just continued to drink with customers and even went over to NUMBERS to drink till 4plus. I was so high that i went back myself in a cab… He sms me around 5plus when he woke up but i already KO the moment reached home, saw his msg at 7plus.

07 Sep (Sunday), i rotted the whole day at home till 6plus when he said he’ll meet me. Since he’ll reached slightly later so i went Serangoon Garden meet Raf didi first. I only sang 1 song nia, he reached le… Sent me home take passport, wana go JB pump petrol, wash car and to eat my favourite wanton mee. Aiyo, think still early so not yet open for business, therefore went opposite but not nice de lor… Headed back to Singapore, as usual will go Jurong lor… Called XZ and Kelvin but nobody answered, think they went back le ba, so we went Orchard Swensen eat ice-cream. Shared the 8 scoops of EarthQuake, chatted about ourselves inorder to know each other better lor. I think i’m beginning to like him even more le, but what about him??? I really hope he’s the one, nobody else but him, but will he know what i’m thinking and what i want??? Actually i just want a simple life, i don’t ask for much, rejecting so many guys for the past 1yr and i chose him instead… Not for money, not for car, not even looks, i know i can find someone even better than him but i still choose him, how i wish i have the ability to read his mind so that i can know what he’s thinking. Words are cheap, though he assured me but what i want is ISSURANCE, for life… Maybe its still too early to say anything now, let nature take its course ba, but said is easier than done lor… As days past by, my feelings for him grew… I know he won’t read this, but if he does or anyone who knows i’m talking about him, just wana say I LOVE U, no others besides U…   *muackx*