Words are cheap… Promises are meant to be broken… Today you’re here for me, the next moment you left me… Sometimes i don’t know what i want, but i know as long as just 1 word from him and i’m ready to let go of everything i have now, but he never  gave me the chance to prove that i can do it… He don’t like me to club, party and drink… He know i have many guys around me, he know i have cars fetching me around… Is these all my fault??? When i’m ready to give him an answer, he told me to give him 3 days instead, so now who’s the 1 who can’t live without partying and drinking??? You or me??? Me saying let go first, i know i’ll regret this decision which i do now, cause i know i won’t be able to take it if 3 days later he’s the 1 saying wana let go… Who knows, it might not be as bad as i think but i can’t think of any other better solution… I made myself drunk, i saw him at FLY, i was really very drunk… Friday and Sunday i was drunk, cause i saw him… I wanted to see him so much but upon seeing him i avoided eye contact with him… Everyday i was hoping for his sms or call but i know its very impossible, does miracle exist??? Besides being emo, what else can i do when days are without him… He sms me, asking me to add him in msn, i thought he’s at Boat Quay, but he’s at Beds therefore i rushed down. He saw me happily with my friends, but am i really happy, i’m not, and not at all but he misunderstood… Saying i’m there for my friends, why can’t he understand me more, why does he always thought the other way??? I was injured, where’s he when i needed him most??? 3 stitches on my left cheek bone… This is not as pain as how he hurt me, i never shed a single tear at all when was at hospital for treatment but the thought of him, i cried… He did care, for first 2 days and chat in msn. Said will bring me for dinner if i can wait for him to finish work but he didn’t, never hear from him after that day… Stupid me, foolish me, silly me… Why did i let him melt iceberg? Why did i let him walk into my life? Why did i let him hurt me? The one infront of me i don’t know how to treasure, intead kept clinging to the past, when can i let go, let go of him?